Matter of Life and Death: Inspired – July 2, 2023
With Love,
it is my intention that my story and struggle with Death will help you.
In loving memory of My Mother
I was blessed to have the best Mother I could ask for!
She was Loving and Caring.
She was well liked by the people that knew her.
She tried to learn something new each day.
She never tried to be the center of attention.
She Loved her kids and Grand kids as much as anyone is capable of loving another.
She didn’t have a large group of friends but she had quality friendships.
The people that were lucky enough to know her held her in high regard and she got to know them and truly cared about them.
How She Passed:
She was diagnosed with Stage 4 Colon Cancer.
It had spread to several internal organs.
I plan to go more into this in a Cancer related post later.
She suffered greatly with the Chemo.
Her Organs were shutting down and she was severely bloating.
They scheduled a surgery to put a stint in her Pancreatic Duct because a tumor in her Liver was pinching the Duct. Her Pancreas wasn’t draining causing a lot of pain. The Doctors said it should be no problem, just need to go in and fix this so her body wouldn’t retain so much fluid. After the surgery, she went into a Coma and her Kidneys started shutting down.
The Biggest Regret of my Life:
Before the surgery, my Mom knew this was it for her.
She tried to let me know and say goodbye.
I wouldn’t allow it.
I didn’t have Faith in God or Heaven at this time.
I believed (and still do) that we are the most powerful healers,
and She needed a positive attitude going in.
So I acted like a know it all and kept telling her she will be fine and to have a positive attitude and I will see you after the surgery.
She had so much Grace that she allowed me to have the last word.
She went into a Coma and never regained consciousness.
My Sister and I eventually had to make the longest walk of our lives down a hospital hallway to sign papers for them to take her off life support.
This was horrible and I don’t wish this on anyone!
I couldn’t process the loss or the feelings of guilt.
Back to my Mom and her affect on me:
She was very Loving and Caring.
She was a teenager when I was born and she had Faith in God.
My Dad was agnostic / atheist and taught me about Darwinism.
My mom tried to get me to go to Sunday school but I was such a pain about going and my Dad provided no support therefore, she just stopped trying to force it.
As a result, I grew up without a Faith in God.
I went to college and earned a technical degree and believed in Darwinism.
However my Mom raised me with Christian values and planted seeds that last forever.
For example: Anytime I had my hopes up and then was disappointed,
She would say either:
“Things always happen for a reason”
and / or
“Things always have a way of working out for the best”
Which now I know translates to:
ROMANS 8:28
“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”
KJV
Now I realize that she was right. Thank you Mom!
As time went on and I look back on disappointments, I can see a reason and I was better off because of it for a variety of reasons depending on the situation.
I also believe that someone or something has always been looking out for me,
and if you look I bet you have the same.
Even though I didn’t believe in God, God believed in me.
My Mom was my only source of Unconditional Love.
She “Died” and without Faith, It crushed me.
I couldn’t process it and really struggled, for years.
It put me in a depression that affected my Life.
I tried to be happy and worked to make my Children feel special and Loved.
I had frustrations with my Wife before my Mom’s “death”, but after my Mom “Died”, those frustrations grew.
I tried to work with her on things, but I just wasn’t happy and had no Joy.
Six years after my Mom’s death, I found myself in the middle of a horrible divorce.
Really bad things happened to me and I ultimately hit Rock Bottom.
Even though I didn’t have Faith in God, I still wanted to believe.
I just couldn’t get past the lies that I grew up believing.
I needed proof, I was a doubting Thomas.
My awakening story of how I came to know that God is real and started to grow my Faith is shared in the “Faith Strengthened” page under Inspired Messages.
The point of this Message for all of us is:
Without God, death is real and final.
Without Hope.
When it happens to someone you Love, there is no way to process it.
JOHN 14:6
“Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.”
KJV
After growing Faith for a while, I came across this video of a Penny’s Near Death Experience that gave me great peace and comfort.
I truly hope this video will help you as it did for me, please watch:
My practical example of ROMANS 8:28 (Shown Above):
At my Mom’s funeral; I was alone saying goodbye to my Mom as she lie in the Coffin. I was strongly compelled to touch her hand. This is something I’ve never done or even considered doing. In less than a second, it immediately disgusted me. I knew in an instant that this was not my Mom. It further depressed me at the time and I wished I hadn’t done it. I was an embarrassing inconsolable mess during the service.
But it turned out, 10 or more years later, to be a good thing that I touched the hand of the body she used to reside in.
I had the experience to draw on to know that she had left her body.
Nurse Penny’s video was the final piece I needed.
Now, I know without any doubt that my Mom didn’t die.
She just changed form and is home with other Loved ones.
This video spoke to me.
I’ve watched others from the channel “The Other Side NDE”.
Each person has a different story, but they all have some things in common:
The people are all Calm, Joyful and Confident.
They are brave to tell their stories and it doesn’t seem to matter to them if you believe them or not, they know it to be true.
I recommend that you scroll through the videos on this channel and allow yourself to be guided to the one that is right for you.
Don’t overthink it, just scroll and allow yourself to be guided.
One will attract you more than others, choose that one.
Back to Mom:
I miss you Mom, but I can now process it all.
I have Joy now.
My intention is that this will help you find yours!
I Love you Always Mom!
Faith. Love. Grace. These three words are all anyone needs to live by. Thanks for sharing
That was powerful to watch video and to understand what you went through with your mom and some episodes of your life.
You are loved
This is such a beautiful testimony of the ultimate love. Thank you so much for sharing this.